Then He Stays With Me

This is In response to my blog "Then He Sleeps Again"..

I have now understood everything. Sometimes, all we have to do is understand each other. Yeah, miscommunication can really harm a relationship. From the very start, I should have been prepared in this kind of situation. I'm glad we have talked about it and we know that it is hard and the distance is killing us but we will stay with each other. We have to make some efforts especially on his part as the time difference is not a good setup. It's funny, this time around, he slept while talking to me. If that is what we need then so be it. Still, I know this could work.. together we will make it work. Sigh.

That Kind of Spark

After this party, people are asking me what happened to "us".

I just laughed. Well because nothing happened. 

My friends keep asking me that we really have chemistry and we so fit together. What else can I say? Oh yeah. Of course, I agreed. He was my all-time crush at work. But I always tell them that the spark and chemistry we have will only be just like that because I know that if he likes me he would have told me beforehand. 

It's hard to keep holding on to something that isn't there in the first place. What do I  do? As usual, deal with it of course. Never assume of something that isn't going to happen. It's been years already. Thankfully, I am coping seriously better.

In end, I appreciate all of my friends' comments about our rapport but hey, he doesn't like me. That's life! We all should accept that 'cause I did already. Things have changed for good.

Kaboom!

Going the Distance

It's funny 'cause the first time I saw this movie, It didn't have any effect on me. Actually it's forgettable. But today, I watched it in my laptop again and yeah, I find myself laughing and crying at some scenes.

It's heartbreaking. Long Distance I mean.

You keep holding on to the phrase, "We'll figure it out" at times and you just have to cry it all out to sleep. 

I don't know how to survive this kind of situation. We both want each other so bad but we have to wait. We are always learning new things about each other every time we talk. This distance is hard, but so far, I am in it to win it. I know I may be aggravating and I know it is hard for him not to see me doing things here and vise versa. I'm stressed thinking of how much we missed each other everyday wishing we could just be together but the hell with it, as long we trust each other I know everything will be alright in the end. Who knows what will happen? So I am enjoying every moment for now. It's very hard though. It's killing me each day. Love and longing.

Gosh I miss you so much. I can't wait to finally see you again.

4u

Now Playing ♥

Love songs... after a long time of not playing this playlist in my IPOD, I suddenly found the guts and inspiration to listen to these songs again. After all, Valentines day is fast approaching. Who says love songs are only for couples and lovers? Nah. 

Here are some of the good old love songs of the times I'm currently playing. It's just good feel the love right?

I've fallen for you - Jamie Rivera

Swept Away - Christopher Cross

Got to believe in magic - David Pomeranz

In your Eyes - Dan Hill

Always - Atlantic Starr

If ever you're in my arms again - Peabo Bryson

Destiny - Jim Brickman

All my life - America

You're the inspiration - Peter Cetera

Getting To Know Each Other - Gerard Kenny

Please be careful with my heart - Jose Mari Chan

Can we just stop and talk a while - Jose Mari Chan

Afraid for love to fade - Jose Mari Chan

Don't know what to do - Ric Segreto 

Basta't kasama kita - Dingdong Avanzado 

To Love Again - Dingdong Avanzado

For you

My current theme song..

"..and I still can remember how you touched me so tender, it showed me you care."

Gosh I miss you.

Hello Spark.. Again!

 

Can I explain briefly what spark means to me?

It's like talking to someone and your nerves are shaking. It's like feeling goosebumps all over your body just thinking of that someone. It's when your hands are sweaty and your body suddenly feel cold.

When was the last time I felt that spark?

How about..

..everyday.

How can I move on..

..when I'm still in love with you.

Happy Valentines!

hihihi

Acceptance

Because it was your choice after all

And you leave me with none

As much as I want to talk to you

Like before

We can’t

As much as I want to make fun of you

Like before

Still, we can’t anymore

Why?

That question I’ve been asking for a year now,

And for a year I knew the answer all along

Someone just made me realize

That I’m right

It’s not because you don’t want to talk

It’s not because we’re not close friends anymore

It’s because you chose her

And the threat is the history we have,

Isn’t it?

Acceptance.

It’s something I finally understand

It’s something I have to live with

Even if I don’t want to

That’s how life is,

We have to live and put up with some things

Even if we don’t want to

Life is unfair

But eventually in return

It gives you something more

Than you really asked for—

Better.

Acceptance.

I guess I can leave it to rest

Letting go.

My heart is still breaking,

But I’m not forgetting.

Moving on,

Moving forward.

Life is still good. :)

But I’m forever gonna miss you.

Classic Pinoy Movie Lines

There are so many Pinoy lines whice were unforgettable.
Here are some of them:


Got 2 Believe (Olivia M. Lamasan, Star Cinema, 2002)


Dahil Mahal Na Mahal Kita (Wenn V. Deramas, Star Cinema, 1998)

My Only Ü (Cathy Garcia-Molina, Star Cinema, 2008)

You Changed My Life (Cathy Garcia-Molina, Star Cinema & VIVA Films, 2009)

You Are The One (Cathy Garcia-Molina, Star Cinema, 2006)



Miss You Like Crazy (Cathy Garcia-Molina, Star Cinema, 2010)

Basta’t Kasama Kita (Rory B. Quintos, Star Cinema, 1995)

One More Chance (Cathy Garcia-Molina, Star Cinema, 2007)

All About Love (Star Cinema, 2006, Bb. Joyce Bernal)

You Got Me (Cathy Garcia-Molina, Star Cinema, 2007)

A Very Special Love (Cathy Garcia-Molina, Star Cinema, 2008)

I Love You, Goodbye (Laurice Guillen, Star Cinema, 2009)

You To Me Are Everything (Mark A. Reyes, Regal Entertainment & GMA Films, 2010)

And I Love You So (Laurenti Dyogi, Star Cinema, 2009)

My Big Love (Jade Castro, Star Cinema, 2008)


Kung Ayaw Mo, Huwag Mo! (Jerry Lopez Sineneng, Star Cinema, 1998)

Paano Na Kaya (Ruel S. Bayani, Star Cinema, 2010)

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Emo day

Changing Times

Is it the person or is it just the feeling of being with the person which I am missing?

It’s funny how time can dramatically change. I can say that after you’ve experience so much hurt and pain for a certain time, you can finally say that you have overcome the worst and completely say that you are okay. Yes it’s true. Time really heal all wounds. With the help of accepting the situation and diverting all painful emotions to something that you loved the most and will make your self better and feel loved, then you’ll never noticed but you’ll realized that you have finally moved on. It’s a realization that will come to a point when the pain in your heart is gone. It is when all the bitterness felt before when you see the person or even talked about the person is gone. It is just amazing to feel nothing of the pain as to before when you can even cry just thinking or seeing the person. I guess that’s life. Life is short so after going down, there is only one way up. Learn and live.. to the fullest!

Ayayay..

NAWAWALA ANG PUSO KO
The Company

Intro:

Huli kong nakausap ang
aking puso
Pagkatapos na tayong
dal'way magkatagpo
Bumilis ang tibok, kasunod
ay kaba
Bumigay daw siya nang ika'y
makilala

Hindi nagsabi kung saan siya
patungo
Ngunit alam kong ikaw ang
kasuyo
Ano'ng magagawa, puso ko'y
maligaya
hintayin mo ako at
sasamahan ko siya

Chorus:

Nawawala ang puso ko
Sa tingin ko ay nasa iyo
Nalilito, nagugulo
Nagmamahal sa iyo
May palagay ako
Napaibig mo
Hindi ko napigil
May kutob ako
Nawawala ang puso ko
Sa tingin ko ay nasa iyo

Ad lib:

Pusong umiibig, nagmamahal ng labis
Sumama sa 'yong ng
pagkabilis-bilis
Di na kailangang isipin ko pa
Nawawala'ng puso ko, ikaw
ang kasama
(Repeat Chorus)

Ad lib:

(Repeat Chorus)
Nawawala ang puso ko
Sa tingin ko ay nasa iyo
Nawawala ang puso ko.

Never Be The Same Again

It’s been a month since I blog about my “heart” status. Now I can say that I have accepted the fact that we can only stay as friends. Maybe not the same before, but I can act still act normal as a good friend. Maybe we can stay like this forever if that’s the case. Before I was thinking to either lose a friend or lose the one that you love but I chose the latter. I’ve learned that it is possible to remain friends with someone you love. It’s not easy but I have learned to cope with it. Truth hurts but I guess that it will always set you free. It’s hard to explain but I am feeling good right now after feeling so miserable for the past three months. I really believe that time heal all wounds and the pain of a broken heart. It can make you deal loneliness and forget how you used to be with someone you loved before. It can make you understand that not to all things are meant to happen in the first place. And also, time can let you think how precious life is. It’s so good to live and enjoy moments. I don’t want to waste my time thinking only of being hurt. I am done with all the crying and sad sentiments. Now I am starting to move on. I know in time, the right person will come.

::: unexpected moment :::

It’s not what I planned for. It’s not what I asked someone to do it for me. But this day is what I always wanted to happen (as per my previous private blogs). It’s a day when I would be with someone whom I wanted to be with. Not even in my dreams that this day would ever come. It’s like a scripted movie. It’s when the time when you want to pause a scene in the movie because you want to absorb what has just happened. It’s the scene when his hand touches mine. I stare at him and remove it when he sees his eyes on me. We walked together towards nowhere and still never thought on sitting down. I started to feel so close to him just sitting together in a place where I don’t understand why we’ve even come there. It’s so hard to say goodbye after the day. I want to hug him at that moment and tell him how happy I am to be with him but I just can’t. If there is only a rewind button for that moment, then I would do it. I feel total happiness just because of these moments. Suddenly, I am asking myself, “Why I am feeling so happy after this day?” I am not sure, but I am sure of one thing: I never felt so happy like this before. Is this love? A deep infatuation? I don’t know. It just happened for 7 hrs maybe. I don’t even know if it would ever happen again. If not, I would forever cherish this day. I am not anticipating but I am very hopeful for another great day with my one great love… (eeewww baduy but true)