City of Angels - Day 1

I'm not planning to write a blog everyday but I just want to share a couple of thoughts today. I'm now in LA it's actually my 1st day here since I arrived around 8pm last night. I'm having problem in sleeping since it's soooo cold in here I'm actually chilling so I have to put my gloves, bonnet, scarf and multi-layered jackets just to ease the cold temperature. Outside the house, I can see a smoke when we talk. Before I'm having a hard time doing it in Baguio but now, it's normal here =) I have my own room here with laptop and wifi so I think I have reason to update my blog in spare time. We will visit some relatives later and hopefully go to bestbuy and walmart to buy my wishlist gadgets including my ever-dreamed new laptop haha! I guess I'll have a one hell of a vacation so I'll make the most out of it. I just hope that I'll get used to the weather and won't get sick. Too bad I missed the HSBC party which is currently happening while I'm writing this blog.. I will be posting some pics next time. =)

Ilocos Trip: An Amazing Long Weekend Getaway!

After planning the trip last Dec 2008, we finally fulfilled our trip to Ilocos. This time, I want to outline our trip (with side comments) from Day 00-Day 03 because there's just to many to good experiences that I want to reminisce in this trip from time to time. Just a note, going on this trip, I have in my mind my must-see places namely the Patapat Bridge, Cape Bojeador Lighthouse, Bangui WIndmill, and the Crisologo Street in Vigan. Will I ever fulfill my dream to visit these places in Ilocos?


Day 00

5:30 PM --> We are all set to depart from the office to the Florida Bus terminal in Sta Mesa. Since we had a hard time looking for a cab, thank God my officemate's house is on the way and told us that she can drop us to the terminal. Since we are 8 from the office, the other 5 fortunately got the cab on time.

7:00 PM --> We arrived on the terminal. We are 11 pax. Me, Louie, Dexter, Chum, Rose, Em, Shobe, Atchi, Katkat, Cari, Vjoy

8:10 PM --> The bus left the terminal. The bus is freezing cold so we had to take off some of our towels from our bags to use it as blanket. Along the way to Pagudpud, the bus on board video is "Taken" which I don't feel to watch so I took a nap and woke up around 1am to our 1st Stop over in La Union. We ate a not so good arroz caldo c/o Vjoy there. The 2nd stop over is in the Marcia's Delicacies in Laoag. I like to buy the Royal Bibingka and Brownies but thought that I might just buy on the way back as pasalubong. I slept again after that and woke up around 6am and never close my eyes again because I'm really used to wake up 6am. The bus started playing Jologs songs like Kailanman by Maso, Luha & Basang basa sa ulan by Aegis, Miss na miss kita by Father and Son...repeatedly (maybe the driver liked them so much!) Ü

Day 01

8:00 AM --> Arrival at Panzzian Beach and Mountain Resort. We took a delicious Tapa with Egg breakfast. We rested for a while and prepared for the trekking at the Spring.
9:30 AM --> Gosh it's raining and the way to the Spring is not so pleasant at all. Just look at the pictures... Even if it's raining, I managed to grab my camera and took some pictures. Interestingly, I really find the trekking kinda easy considering that I am carrying my camera. It's just that the mud is very slippery at times. I think my gyming twice a day everyday helps me a lot to have the endurance and be strong (hahaha!)

10:00 AM --> We reached the mountain spring, took some pictures, and got bitten by big mosquitos. I hate it. Personally, I think we should never went to the Spring because it's not worth it. I thought there is a big falls after the trekking but the tour guide said that if we want falls, we should go to Kabigan Falls which is an hour trakking. With the state of the weather, we decided skip the Kabigan Falls trip.
11:30 AM --> We enjoyed the beautiful scenery at our resort and took many many jumpshots haha!
12:30 NN --> We all took shower. Had our lunch at the resort. Waited at our rooms before the Pagudpud tour.
1:30 NN --> Start of Tour.

Cagayan-Ilocos Norte Boundary Viewdeck - Since it's cloudy because of a bad weather, we didn't see much of the said to be wonderful view up here. Rose slipped here (maybe tired? haha)
Patapat Bridge - Wish come true. The Pagudpud Viaduct is just an amazing elevated highway on a mountainside.
Bantay Abot Cave - Here we experienced a mild sandstorm hahaha! Super major challenge going up because of the very windy situation up there. It is a cave that has a hole in the center. It's good for picture taking.
Saud Beach White Resort - I just realized that our 12 hour trip is worth it just seeing the fine white sand of Saud. Entrance fee is just P20 but we didn't swim here though. Just took "energy" pictures.
Blue Lagoon or Maira-Ira Beach - Gigantic waves. That's all I can say. Not a good place to swim because even if I'm just sitting on the shore, I got banged up by the "super" waves. Still, we still got fascinated by it and made it as our nice background for the photo ops. The beach is not crowded, just perfect to chill and relax.

6:00 PM --> Got back to the resort for shower and dinner.
7:00 PM --> Dinner.
8:00 PM --> Bonfire
9:00 PM --> Lights Out. Whew! What a day! Ü

Day 02

8:00 AM --> Breakfast
9:00 AM --> Start of Tour.
Bangui Windmill - Another dream come true. Wind situation is milder than in Bantay Abot Cave but still we didn't have the good shots here because of the wind. Too bad we stayed just short minutes and didn't capture the sunset because of the gloomy weather. I was planning to take pictures more but the place is crowded.
Cape Bojeador Lighthouse - A must see place dream come true too. We didn't have the time to go to the lighthouse itself because there are so many people lined up. We just stayed below and enjoy the scenery from there.
Sta. Monica Church & Belltower (Sarrat Church) - Flanking the Church is the Casa del Palacio Real which is a brick-wall convent. Bats are flying below the ceiling of it.
Malacanang of the North - A huge huge resthouse of the Marcoses during his regime. Place is a bit creepy for me maybe because of the old beddings and chairs. Entrance fee is P20/pax.
Marcos Museum - I saw the waxed replica in a glass casket of Marcos. No cameras allowed inside but I sneaked in mine but didn't take a picture. I have no plans at all.
Fort Ilocandia Resort - Wow. One of the most sophisticated resorts I've ever seen.
Paoay Church - Amazing architecture of the Church. I believe this one's the most famous of all churches in Ilocos. My shots are postcard-like. Just too beautiful.
Baluarte - Chavit Singson's mini zoo. We are a bit late since we arrived around 4:45 PM here closing is 5:00 PM. The butterfly garden is already closed. But assorted animals like camel, mini ponies, tigers, deers, ostrichs, reindeers and others are still very photogenic for the photo sessions. Entrance is free. Ü
6:30 PM --> Check in @ Granpa’s Inn.
7:00 PM --> Dinner @ Café Uno in Front of Granpa’s Inn.
8:30 PM --> We went to Partas Terminal to check the bus ticket schedule to Manila. We also checked out Dominion Bus Lines. After that, we visit the famous heritage street of Vigan – Calle Crisologo.
Calle Crisologo - OMG. My most must-see place. Didn't thought it was more beautiful at night. When I took the pictures, it's like in Sepia effect but it's not. Looking at the Spanish buildings and houses made me feel like I'm back 100 years in time. Too bad I didn't have the time to ride the Calesa.
12:00 MN --> Sleeping time.
3:00 AM --> Some of us already left to Manila – Em, Shobe, Atchi, Cari, Vjoy, Louie. The rest of us – me, Katkat, Dexter, Chum, and Rose will ride the 2PM bus the next day because we still want to explore more of Vigan.


Day 03

8:00 AM --> Breakfast @ Kusina Felicitas.
9:00 AM --> We went to Public Market to avail some of Pasalubongs.
10:00 AM --> Went back to Calle Crisologo to avail some Vigan souvenirs.
11:00 AM --> Early lunch @ McDo near the Plaza since Café Leona is still closed 
12:00 NN --> Check out @ Granpa’s Inn.
12:30 PM --> We went to Dominion Bus Lines early because there is no ticket reservation but unfortunately, the next trip is 5Pm instead of 2Pm so we went straight ahead to Partas and luckily, there’s a bus to Pasay waiting and so we are are way to Manila ahead of time. We are so fortunate whew!
10:00 PM --> Because of the traffic we experienced in Tarlac and Pangasinan area, we arrived late but I still don’t feel tired. My family’s waiting in SM North Area to pick me up and we went straight to my apartment.
12:30 MN --> After unpacking my things and taking pictures of some souvenirs, it’s sleeping time for me. What an experience! All my dream places to visit came true. Very memorable and I really had fun. Ilocos is a very beautiful place and given a chance, I will still come back next time. 

Chapter 9 - He's Just Not That Into You..

Bolinao + Hundred Islands, Pangasinan Weekend Trip

At first I was hesitant to go with this trip because (1) My family is yet to celebrate my mother’s birthday last Mar 27, (2) I have my monthly period, (3) I am sick – “tamaditis”, and (4) I am choosing mind over heart. But when I got home last Friday, I thought that I miss my friends and I’ve never been to Pangasinan before. It outweighs the 4 reasons I mentioned before. I thought that it’s good to go out and see other places so I pack my things in a rush and get ready to a weekend getaway with them.

They were supposed to meet me in Meycauayan at 5:30 am but someone got late (thanks Ronald! Haha) So they arrived in our town around 8 am. 

We have no plans on where to stay and where to go but we headed to Pangasinan with only Harvey’s directions stored in his camera. When we reached Alaminos, Pangasinan, 

Mark’s tire got flat so we went to a vulcanizing shop to fix the damage. Afterwards, Mark’s aircon just exploded because it’s been running in full level for around 6 hours. So we opened the window and smell the fresh air of Pangasinan. Unfortunately, it’s very hot that time so we were like getting toasted inside the van and we need to go through a 15 mins rough road to Bolinao. It was very hot that we all want to just jump into the water when we see the beach. Luckily, we arrived safely to Bolinao Beaches. So, because we have no reservations and it’s a long weekend, we had a hard time looking for a convenient place to stay. We searched the whole beach resorts in Bolinao. In the end, we are torn between Garden Paradise and AMS Beach Resort. 

For the Garden Paradise, the only available for 9 persons is the non-airconditioned 3 bedrooms + 3 fans + 1 CR for Php 2,500 per night. For the latter, its Php 7,500/night for 3 airconditioned rooms with TV, Ref, Sala, and 2 very clean CR. In the end, only one factor made us decide which resort to choose from – the hospitality of the sraff in the resort. We chose Garden Paradise over AMS. The staff who welcomed us in AMS is not polite and so “hambog”. We even tagged him as “unggoy” haha! So we decided to stay in Garden Paradise Beach Resort because eventhough the rooms are not airconditioned, people there are hospitable and friendly.

It’s almost 4pm when we had our super duper late lunch so no talking policy while eating haha! After the uber busog lunch c/o packed lunch of Ronald litsong kawali and adobong baboy, we changed outfit to go swimming! But before that, since the sunset is so beautiful, we abused it by taking many pictures with it. Jump shot kung Jump shot! 

Maybe it’s around 5:30 when we go for the swimming but we didn’t last the water because we felt like some living things are biting us because it’s itchy and the water is not that clean as there are many buried seaweeds haha! 

So we just stayed along the shore, just enjoying the cool breeze of the water flowing. Of course, we took too many jump shots again.

Come dinner time, we went to the other side of our resort. Aside from the litsong kawali and adobo leftovers from our lunch, we ordered additional fried chicken and sinigang na baboy. After eating, we had another photo sessions with the resort. 

Around 10 maybe when we settle in our “kubo” and drink few glasses of bailey’s and red horse while we play cards – pekwa, unggoy unggoy, tong its. Maybe it’s around 1:30am when we decided to pack up and sleep because we have another day coming. Because there is no aircon, we settle with the electric fan and fortunately there are no flying insects inside our room – just some small bugs.

I’m the first person to woke up around 5:30 and I can say that I had a very good sleep eventhough I had a  mild cramps in my legs because of our sleeping position but it’s tolerable. Since I’m the only one awake, I headed towards the beach alone along with my tripod to take pictures. Unfortunately sunrise is not on our beach side but I found this Nipa Hut in the water to take pictures on. 

It’s a very beautiful scenario because it’s low tide and you can walk near the Nipa Hut. So I set up the tripod and did my thing – picture! Picture! Haha!

Maybe it’s around 7 when I headed back the room and took a shower. Others are still sleeping but by around 9am we are all settled. We pack our things, took our last pictures in the beach and say bye bye to people of Garden Paradise Beach Resort. 

Unfortunately, we didn’t got the chance to go to the Bolinao Lighthouse and the Enchanted Cave because our way went the opposite direction. So we just decided to go to Hundred Islands since it is really the main agenda of trip. It’s around 11am when we had our brunch in Nepo Mart in Alaminos. Ronald, Harvey, and I chose Cindy’s Restaurant over Chowking since we want to try something new. 

But Harvey and I also ate Halo-Halo in Chowking afterwards. It rained so stayed a little longer inside chowking. Others think it’s Donna’s fault because she bought a new shades against the sun but it jinx and it rained haha! When the rain becomes mild, we then took off to Hundred Islands.

Around 2:30 when we arrived in Hundred Islands and we had Island hopping. Our first stop is the Governor’s Island where we need to go to the top to see the nice view of some islands. Funny story here is that Ronald, Harvey and I were lost upon going down because there are three ways and we didn’t see the right way at first. We lost their company and we just waited in the boat where we were supposed to be at. 

They were late because they went to Big Brother House. Our next stop is the Children’s Island where there is nothing much just another Island for the kids. We took pictures and headed back to the boat for the next island which is the Manuel Island. Here, Ronald go for swimming and while we are waiting for 5:30 (the end of the tour), we search for something nice in the island and we found the Manuel Quezon statue which we abused for picture taking. So our tour is finished and we upon returning the shore, we bought some pasalubongs like shells, T-shirts, and key chains. I changed my T-shirt and had a very solid facial wash to freshen up. Time to go home by 6pm. For Dinner, we ate in KFC somewhere in Tarlac. Mark dropped me by Meycauayan Exit around 11pm and it’s time to say goodbye to my friends.

Overall, I had a very fun trip with my friends which outweighs all the hassles we had. It is still full of wonderful memories and now I can mark out Pangasinan from my lists of next destinations since I have already visited it. Next stop – Pagudpud, Ilocos.

Never Be The Same Again

It’s been a month since I blog about my “heart” status. Now I can say that I have accepted the fact that we can only stay as friends. Maybe not the same before, but I can act still act normal as a good friend. Maybe we can stay like this forever if that’s the case. Before I was thinking to either lose a friend or lose the one that you love but I chose the latter. I’ve learned that it is possible to remain friends with someone you love. It’s not easy but I have learned to cope with it. Truth hurts but I guess that it will always set you free. It’s hard to explain but I am feeling good right now after feeling so miserable for the past three months. I really believe that time heal all wounds and the pain of a broken heart. It can make you deal loneliness and forget how you used to be with someone you loved before. It can make you understand that not to all things are meant to happen in the first place. And also, time can let you think how precious life is. It’s so good to live and enjoy moments. I don’t want to waste my time thinking only of being hurt. I am done with all the crying and sad sentiments. Now I am starting to move on. I know in time, the right person will come.

Excerpt from Chasing Amy

Alyssa: "Why are we stopping?"
> Holden: "Because I can't take this."
> Alyssa: "Can't take what?"
> Holden: "I love you."
> Alyssa: "You love me?"
> Holden: "I love you. And not in a friendly way, although I think we're great friends. And not in a misplaced affection, puppy-dog way, although I'm sure that's what you'll call it. And it's not because you're unattainable. I love you. Very simple, very truly. You're the epitome of every attribute and quality I've ever looked for in another person. I know you think of me as just a friend, and that crossing that line is the farthest thing from an option you'd ever consider. But I had to say it. I can't take it anymore. I can't stand next to you without wanting to hold you. I can't look into your eyes without feeling that longing you only read about in trashy romance novels. I can't talk to you without wanting to express my love for everything you are. I know this will probably queer our friendship-no pun intended-but I had to say it,because I've never felt this before, and I like who I am because of it.And if bringing it to light means we can't hang out anymore, then that hurts me. But I couldn't allow another day to go by without getting it out there, regardless of the outcome, which by the look on your face is to be the inevitable shoot-down. And I'll accept that. But I know some part of you is hesitating for a moment, and if there is a moment of hesitation, that means you feel something, too. All I ask is that you not dismiss that-at least for 10 seconds-and try to dwell in it. Alyssa,there isn't another soul on this ******* planet who's ever made me half the person I am when I'm with you, and I would risk this friendship for the chance to take it to the next plateau. Because it's there between you and me. You can't deny that. And even if we never speak again after tonight, please know that I'm forever changed because of who you are and what you've meant to me, which-while I do appreciate it-I'd never need a painting of birds bought at a diner to remind me of."

/♥/ Sound of One Heart Breaking /♥/

“I was in love but he didn’t care. Maybe he did, but not enough. Maybe he thought I was wonderful, fun and nice, but still not enough. Maybe he did like me but not enough, not enough to love me. He’s too close and yet unaware that I was hurting, unaware of the tears he created into my eyes. Now I try to let go, not because I don’t love him, but because I’m trying to give myself a chance, a chance to be hurt again by someone who always made me happy and at the same time lonely.”

Maybe falling in love is like a curse. You’d be happy at one point, and when you lose it, you’re dying. Maybe this is what I feel right now—the first bit. He didn’t care. This is the point in everybody’s life when you just have to give it up because it wasn’t mutual, it wasn’t sane enough for you, it wasn’t making you happy.Maybe he liked me but not enough…to love me. True.

“Just because your lips meet doesn’t mean your hearts do too.”

Self-explanatory. Can I just rephrase that? “Just because you hold hands and hug doesn’t mean your hearts do too.” Can’t you just keep your hands and whatever else to yourselves if all you want to give is friendship? Make people hope, then scram. Good life. Wham bam thank you ma’am. Life. Whoever said it was entirely great.

A sweet quote from a guy: Love is when I can’t pay attention in class because I’m too busy writing her first name… with my last.

Do guys really do this?

“Sometimes, you just have to pretend that you’re happy just to stop everyone from asking you what the hell happened.”

Be honest: a lot of us do this. But you’d appreciate friends who see through the smiles and ask you what’s wrong, and you know that no matter how much you push them away, they’d still be there and be ready to listen.

Maybe I could have loved him better. Maybe he should have loved me more. Maybe our hearts were just next in line. Maybe everything breaks sometimes. We never know what could have been. Maybe someday he’ll regret it. Maybe someday he’ll think it was the best decision he ever made. But maybe someday he’ll see me smiling and happy, along with someone who’s also smiling and happy coz he has my heart. Because someday, someone is going to thank him for letting me go.

Katuloy siguro ito nung pinakaunang quote na kinabit ko rito, ano? Ang dami niyang ‘maybe.’ Hehe. I like the last line though: someday, someone is going to thank him for letting me go.

“It’s the obsession on the feeling that you once had for a person that makes you wonder if you’re still in love. When in fact, it’s been long gone.”

Have you ever thought that maybe you feel that you are in love with the word ‘love’ and not with the person? Or maybe you feel that sayang naman ang pinagsamahan, kaya kahit hindi ka na masaya sa taong yun, go ka pa rin sa relasyon kasi akala mo… nararamdaman mo pa rin ung dati at babalik yun. That part I don’t know. I am a believer that once love left your heart, it may go back, but not the same way as it was before. You may love a person, but you love a person in varying degrees. You might not even love them everyday. There are days that you just love them less for reasons you have yet to know.

Sometimes you just have to forget the rules, follow your heart and see where it takes you. Never apologize for saying what you feel because that’s like saying sorry for being real. Never regret anything you said or did because at some point, it was what you wanted. True strength is being able to hold it all together when everyone else is expecting you to fall apart.

Forget the rules and follow your heart—easy to say, hard to do.

“Pain is only an illusion, but an illusion that hurts.” – Mighty Ducks

Scientists say that our emotions come from a part of our brain—not our heart—that is called the hypothalamus. I wonder, does the hypothalamus ‘create’ the feeling of pain as well?

We can never be happy with something that was wrong, but if somewhere along the way what was wrong has made us happy, then it must have been right all along.

Loving someone who doesn’t feel the same way is like you’re drowning in the middle of the sea, you’re struggling for your life, while someone is at the shore, just watching you die.

Just one thing: EXACTLY.

“Is it possible to be just friends with someone I have these sort of non-moderate feelings for? Or am I doomed forever to be just in love and ultimately significantly hurt?” - Felicity

“How can you assume to be friends with someone when all you think about when you look at him is how much more you really want?” – Joey Potter, Dawson’s Creek

For most people, friendship is the beginning of something—the foundation for a much deeper relationship. Too bad for some, it’s a borderline… a limit.

I am guilty of this way too many times. It’s not possible to stay friends with a friend you have fallen in love with, because whether we accept it or not, feelings have changed. The moment you admit to yourself that, “Oh sh*t, I’m in love with my (best) friend!” you are doomed.

A perfect partner in life is someone you can be with and talk about anything without realizing that the day was over. Someone who will always listen and feel twice the joy or pain you’re going through. When you start to feel that ‘connection,’ never let it go because there is more to companionship than to love only. Because in the end, when all else fails and are consumed, you will always hold on to those times when you don’t even need to hear the words ‘I love you.’

Yeah, you’d look for this or you’d hope this ‘perfect partner’ finds you—that is, if you still believe in those, um, stuffs.

Funny how you run after happiness and end up wounded. Ironically speaking, life has no direction since then. It was you who made a puzzle and it was you who made yourself cry. Yet, though things may happen because of you, there’s no reason to blame yourself, coz you’ll also be the reason why you can smile despite a wounded soul. Just know when to choose and react, talk and debate, smile and frown. Lastly, know the right person who can help you make the best puzzle life could ever have.

“It was you who made a puzzle and it was you who made yourself cry.” —Tama yan. Sisihin ang sarili. Go for more self-pity.

“The hardest part in being loved by someone is the uncertainty that it may stop anytime.”

Kung cynical ka tulad ko, ganito ang pag-iisip mo.

The hardest person to get over with is the one you never had.

True. (Oh diba. Pag one-liner—one-worder(?)— ang hirit ko, ibig sabihin natatamaan ako.)

I won’t waste my time caring about the people who don’t like me—chances are I don’t like them too. I won’t waste my time worrying if people are talking about me—I affect their lives, they didn’t affect mine. I waste my time with friends—those that accept me for being me and if some people don’t like me, it’s because I’m not living my life their way. I am always thankful for the friends I have for they have shown me that in some way or another, real friends are always there to stay.

Thank you friends, for helping me survive life.ü

“The most hard-headed people in the whole wide world are those people who are in love. Whatever you tell them, they just wouldn’t listen.”

Yes, because they are not using their heads, silly. Eto yung mga taong masyadong masaya sa buhay na masarap iuntog sa pader. Hehe.ü

Letting go is like getting a tooth pulled out from a dentist. Pull it out, you’re relieved. But how many times does your tongue run itself over the spot where the tooth once was? Probably a hundred times a day. Just because it wasn’t hurting you it doesn’t mean you don’t notice it. It leaves a gap and sometimes you see yourself missing it terribly. It’s going to take a while, but it takes time. Should you have kept the tooth? No, coz it was causing you so much pain.

Magaling. Magaling. Magaling. Ihambing sa pag-ibig ang pagbunot ng ngipin. Dati, sa pagdadrive ng jeep. Ngayon sa toothache. Reregaluhan ko ang makakapaghambing ng pag-ibig sa baseball at basketball.

I wonder how people can tell you they love you, yet they were never there to make you feel it.

TRUE. Minsan mas gugustuhin mo nalang isampal sayo ang katotohanang hindi ka talaga nila mahal, kesa pinagmumukha ka nilang tanga at umaasa ka sa sinabi nilang mahal ka nila. Mga leche sila.

It’s the silence that tells it all. Sometimes it’s not about the yelling and the tears. All it takes is for two people to sit beside each other and feel that something is wrong, that what was there before isn’t there anymore. That they’re miserable when they’re apart but they’re much worse when they’re together. And that there’s only two options left. Either they sit still and ignore the pain, or one of them gathers enough courage to stand up and walk away.

I’ve always wanted to be free. To fly away and never return, to soar up high till the height may never be seen. But then, somewhere beyond that, I wish to be owned, to be held, and to be never let go.

We have so many needs in our life. But our only need that we want the most is to be NEEDED.

There are just some quotes that hit the spot where your loneliness is.

Any kind of pain sucks. Even the smallest of cuts gives you that sensation. But the kind that we can’t stand is the one that pierces right through the chest. The kind that even without a wound, stabs you right through, making us not want to breathe. I wish that there’s a quick fix. But the reality is, it doesn’t exist. All we can do is hold on and hope to the heavens that the next time it comes, it won’t hurt as much.

Pain is still pain. Is there any difference?

Loveless? Just wait. Sooner or later, there will be someone you will call ‘mine.’ Broken-hearted? That’s the cycle of loving. You’ll eventually learn to love again in time. So ask, listen and let go. Single? No attachment, no commitment, no pain. But it’s sad to be alone. Be happy while life lasts. In love? Take care of your relationship. Enjoy the sweet kisses, warm hugs and lovely I love you’s. And just continue loving. Who knows, someday, the one you have right now is the one you will spend your whole life with.

As we mature, we all have to make this transition. We all have to let go of some of our fairy tale expectations for love, and learn to embrace a kind of love that can survive a few hard winters. Love that has been tested is far more inspiring than love that has never known anything but bliss. Don’t look for a partner with whom you have no problems, but one you are good at overcoming problems with.

Some quotes are just for the hopelessly hopeful.

The playboys and playgirls of this world are the loneliest creatures ever known. In spite of all the love and attention they get, they feel certain emptiness in their hearts, which can only be filled by truly loving one man or woman. How sad, coz they don’t know how to.

Did I say that for a moment in my life, I thought that it was okay to cheat on the person who loves you? (Note that I didn’t say ‘the person you love.’—That’s different.) It wasn’t only then that someone ‘cheated’ on me that I thought against it. Not a nice feeling to be cheated on. Tears you apart and swallows you whole.

If you want pain… if you like tears… if you need sleepless nights and suffering… find a friend, and fall in love.

Ever so true.

We sometimes think that we never did anything good. We sometimes think that our deeds were never good enough. Think again. Coz even a stopped clock is right twice a day. :)

I just love this part: “…even a stopped clock is right twice a day.” Come to think of it, it’s true. So no matter how bad we feel about ourselves and how f*cked up life is, somewhere, something there is right.

Just because someone comes back to you doesn’t mean that it’s because that someone loves you. It could also mean that they’re not done hurting you.

And I just don’t know why, but I agree. Sometimes people don’t come back because they want to be there for you and you’d have to experience them all over again, but they’re just back to hurt you even more. Torture you till you’re nonfunctional. Hurt you till you crumble.

“Falling down from the third floor hurts as bad as falling down from the hundredth. If I fall, may it be from a high place.” – Paulo Coelho

Help me on this one. From what I remember, this one’s from By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept, but somehow it’s bugging me that it might be from Veronika Decides to Die. Well, as I’ve said, pain is pain. Not much difference.

It’s easy to say goodbye but too hard to forget. Why? Because love is more than words can say. Once you’ve fallen, you can’t help but fall over and over again. So even if goodbyes have been said, there’s something in the heart that says, “Please stay.” Why? Because it’s love. And the reason is unknown. Despite the pain and the heartaches, love will always retain its pride. Its sweetness. It’s mystery.

Why can’t goodbye just mean what it’s supposed to mean? And why can’t people say goodbye and finish it right then and there and never return?

I can’t be a dummy if I know deep within me I’m real. Yet, some people may misunderstand me, don’t recognize my existence, and don’t even bother to take a simple glimpse of my worth. But this is what I want to say: what you see is never always what you get.Judge me? Well it depends on what you see. But knowing me? Is your creativity to look deeper. Peel whatever cover you could see. Coz deep within me is what makes me human, not perfect but a real one.

“…deep within me is what makes me human, not perfect but a real one.” Kudos to whoever made this quote. People are never perfect. They try, and you end up hating those who try and act perfect. Or maybe those who believe their God’s gift to people and are so perfectly made that they cannot make mistakes. We are all humans. Imperfections make us seem perfect—we just have to find people whose imperfections jive well with ours.

I used to run away from you because I wanted you to run after me but I guess at one point, I got tired of looking back to wait for nothing. Now, I’m just running away for good.

Yes. I’m running away for good, coz you’re so bad for me.

I’ve never understood the reasoning for someone to “move on.” It’s not like you’re really going to “move on,” you’re just trying to tell your heart to stop thinking about that person every second of every minute, ever minute of every day till it finally becomes a routine and you don’t notice it anymore. That is, till you see that person again, with someone who isn’t you, and then you have to remind yourself again.

…with someone who isn’t you. —OUCH.

Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else. You’re the one who gets burned.

It wasn’t until I read this that I realized it was actually true.

If an angel and a devil were to fall in love with each other, can their love transcend the laws of heaven and hell? Can the angel set her wings on fire? Can the devil soar at daylight? This is fate’s decree. Love can’t change what isn’t meant to be.

Love can’t change what isn’t meant to be. So angels can’t be with demons, pigs can’t be with monkeys, cats can’t be with mice (dogs, too), and humans can’t be with, er, what? Oh. The quote meant another thing.

There are those people who do not like me. People who criticize how I run my life. People who just say things to hurt me. People who do things to inflict pain. People who will never understand my principles in life. People who keep trying to put me down and tell bad things behind my back. But hell, through it all, I struggle, not to prove them that they are wrong because I certainly am not giving them that advantage. These people are so insecure that they prey on others to cover up their own frustrations. I have proven myself that I did not exist to please them.

Enough said.

Why math has been hated by most: because it requires them to think and forces them to forgive the correct and exact value. Because it has a clear distinction of right and wrong. Most people love to speak about any issue but hate to accept that they’re wrong. That’s the beauty of math. Right is right and wrong is wrong.

I never thought someone would actually make an effort and analyze why math is hated the most in a semi-philosophical level. Come to think of it, I used to like math before because it offers you a lot of solutions and you can arrive at that same answer. Yes, shortcuts or long-cuts, your option. You still reach your destination.

There are times when I wish that I was limited to certain emotions, so that I’ll never have to experience pain, never feel betrayed or disappointed, and never get my fragile heart broken. But the same thing means that I’ll never know how it feels to love and be loved in return. The thought of it kind of scares me. To have a heart that’s whole but numb, or a heart that’s broken but real.

I had both at different periods of my life. There isn’t much difference. Sometimes, you wish you still have that numb heart. At least it’s whole.

I nod. Looking at the way you hesitate to take my hand, resting so near yours, I know you’ve already gone. I will make it easy for both of us, I tell myself. I will forget the feel of your hands on my skin. I will smile and tell you that I’m happy for you because that’s what you want to hear, and that’s what I want to believe. I will not hope you will be back soon nor say that I wish I will go with you. Instead, I will keep in mind that there’s nothing between us anymore. It’s just that the coffee is too warm, and I am so cold.

Don’t you just love this? Something about coffee—and love. “…the coffee is too warm, and I am so cold.” Spells me right now. So cold.

For every woman who is tried of acting weak when she knows she’s strong, there is a man who is tired of appearing strong when he feels vulnerable. – Nancy Smith

Hell yeah.

People ask, why fall in love when being hurt is a certainty? My answer? It makes me feel I’m alive. Coz whether I feel the greatest hurt or the greatest love, sheer bliss or flood of tears, on top of the world or at the bottom of the damned chain, it made my heart beat fervently. I tell you, I’d rather fall in love over and over again than to blend in with millions of heartless zombies who resolved to play safe.

I didn’t play safe. I fell in love over and over. Yet I think I abused my capabilities to love. Nothing more left. It didn’t leave me with much to go on with.

A lesson from grammar: the past will always be simple, the future will always be perfect, and the present will always be tensed.

And here comes grammar. Some quote out there is about physics and chemistry and linked it to love. Can anybody do calculus?

When I think about what love has brought me, I remember the times that my only refuge is alcohol. It helps me forget about my pain and my misery. I forget about the person I have given the power to hurt me. Experience has taught me to be wise, and I keep with me one hard earned lesson amidst my drunken stupor—giving too much of myself to somebody is almost the same as suicide. –Realizations of an Alcoholic

TRUE. “…giving too much of myself to somebody is almost the same as suicide.” Opening up to someone is tough at first. Getting to let them now you, getting to let yourself know them, care for them, tell them everything, then they just drop you off without even saying much as a goodbye? Kills you. Slowly.

source: asenathmica xanga site

-=- He's Just Not That Into You -=-

“Whoever said there were plenty of fish in the sea was lying. Sometimes, there’s only one fish.” - Ally Mc Beal

I realized that if a guy wants to be with you, he will let you know. You won’t have to send him a text message by mistake or “suddenly”. Show up at his fave gimmick place or plan a “chance” encounter. If he was really into you, he’d take every possible chance to see you. Moral of the story? Stop analyzing or agonizing over his so-called moves. If he’s not asking you out, chances are, he doesn’t see you as girlfriend material.

Normally, guys would choose to walk on a tightrope than tell you they don’t like you. But this is what you have to do. Yes, you may give yourself time to mope but do not EVER think that something is wrong with you. When a guy you’ve spent an awful time a lot of time flirting or bonding with suddenly disappears, all your insecurities seem magnified. Your hips get bigger, your zits multiply or your hair become frizzier. Don’t let it get you. No, you don’t have to change anything. You get along well with guys and friendship is never a bad thing. It’s just that you’re not his type. The truth is always hard to swallow. Don’t feel bad. You are wonderful in your own way. Move on and find the guy who will see that even on your I-feel-ugly days.

Okay, I know what you’re thinking. What if he’s just busy? Or what if he’s just not ready for a relationship? Or he’s just torpe? Stop making excuses. Stop thinking of all kinds of reasons why he hasn’t called, texted or asked you out. One of my guy friends once told me, if he really liked you, he should have done something by now. He would have contacted you even if he was “busy.” And even if he’s “chicken,” he would get up the guts to court you if he was really crushing hard. Don’t give meaning to every little thing he does. But if you get confused and are not sure whether or not there is something going on, talk to your other, more trusted guy friends. Your girl friends will more often than not tell you what you want to hear or tell you “do whatever makes you happy.” Your guy friends will tell you the truth. The honest to goodness truth. Sometimes, that is all you need to hear to open your eyes to what is really happening.

I’ve always been the unbelievably optimistic girl. I secretly wished that this guy I like would finally call or ask me out. Bring me flowers and all that mushy stuff. Maybe I should give him some time. Whatever. The only thing I should be doing is to stop wasting my time on him. Really, spend more time with friends. He may not be that into you, but that doesn’t mean that you’re not good enough to become someone else’s girlfriend. Just think about it, if you compute the time you waste waiting by the phone or daydreaming about the guy you’re crushing on, how many hours would you have spent? Stay hopeful, but move on. If he’ll really be into you, then that time will come. But don’t put your life on hold and wait for it.

Yes, it’s hard. Even I haven’t gotten over this guy I like. But we have to start somewhere. You will never move on if you don’t face the fact that Mr. Right isn’t your Mr. Right.  And please, don’t think that it’s the end of the world or you’re stuck there. Instead of agonizing that you’re not his type, be assured that someone else out there Will think you’re fabulous-and that’s what you deserve.

Source: Janis Ian C. Gopez’s article: “Always the Best friend”