The One That Got Away

While backing up my files this year on my laptop, I browsed my previous pictures in HSBC and coincidentally the mouse pointed to a folder dated November 18, 2008. And somehow I played along with Kate Perry’s song, "The One That Got Away". 

"In another life i would be your girl, we'd keep all our promises be us against the world, in another life, i would make you stay, so i don't have to say you were the one that got away."

Katy Perry - The One That Got Away

Suddenly, at that moment, all the memories came flooding before my eyes in a split second. I guess because in my life, I made note of a lot of people. Ones with whom I shared something special and those who I will always mean something. Define sentimental - I am. 

So who is my own 'the one that got away'?  

He was great, super gentleman, a very contained person, funny at times, everything was perfect - just my type,  there was no fault in him, our chemistry's undeniably good, but I suppose our stars just didn't align on that exact moment. Maybe he fell for another girl. Maybe I wasn't mature enough to handle such things about love a.k.a jealousy. The wall between us became strong. I hate it. In the end I found myself in regrets. Crying on treadmill is not healthy at all. And we grew separately and everything still doesn't make sense of how it ended up to nothing. To make it worse, I didn't talk about it to him. If only I did then I won't be posting this in my blog. I should’ve told him what he meant to me, because now I pay the price.  Hearing this song is like hearing Adele's "Someone like you" - it puts myself staring to nowhere while whispering these four words that lingers to me - what might have been? 

I know he is not yet married. Of course I know, he's right in front of me everyday. But I heard he's committed to his long time first love. I know his memories will live in mine forever, like what I said in my previous posts, I guess once you loved a person, it will never leave you, you'll just have to accept and deal with it as time goes by. Believe me, you'll get used to it. Just enjoy life and keep praying that you'll meet another someone like him.

We're actually friends. It's hard not to be. Maybe he won't know this, or maybe I could tell it to him someday.

So I won't play this song again. It leaves me thinking, hoping, and wishing.. to turn back time. 

November 18, 2008 -- Ahh. What happened on this date is still very clear to me. How could I ever forget? It is one of my most memorable moments with him. 

Really. He is the one that got away. He is my what if.