Blast From The Past

It’s the worst feeling in the world to love and hate someone all at the same time.

It’s hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same.

It’s crazy when you want to let go.. but you keep holding on and you want to move on - but you’re stuck right where you started.

When feelings come and go and you can’t decide what you want.

When you have so many things to say, but you don’t know where to start.

When you want them in your life so bad.. but all you can do is push them farther and farther away.

It’s so hard to think back how things used to be and look at it now and realize that things are different - and they may never be the same again.

You tell yourself it’s not worth it..

but if it really didn’t matter, you wouldn’t spend so much time thinking about it.

Lost and Found

I knew I have lost some "friends" but I’ve realized my true friends - and that pleases me.

However, I do miss the old ones. I miss 2008 a lot.
Sometimes I want to freeze time - a moment.
Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
Of course, I'd like to think that.
For now, I’m thankful for those that I have and to those I am going to become close to.
I can feel something happening. Something is coming for me.
My life is finally filled up - preparing and getting ready for a change.
I have good people now. I love them all.
I do miss the past.
But I might as well not dwell anymore.
My shoulders are still weighed down, but now I am given enough room to breathe.

X-Factor USA 2011 - 3rd Live Show

Goodbye Stereo Hoggz. I was hoping it's Marcus Canty ('cause I don't like him being too overconfident). I think this group just had a problem with their identity. Their first live show "Try a little Tenderness" is their best performance. The rest is unforgettable. But good luck to this group. Who knows there is still a gap in the market for this boyband thing.. For me this week, best performances came from Astro / Chris / Drew / Melanie. I just love Chris' version of Gangsta's Paradise! Nice!!!